Head and Heart to be on the same page
For 5 years I have been in love with who I thought was my soul mate and best friend. We have been through so much. Most of our own wrong doing. Almost two years ago we had a child together. Something we talked about for a very long time. A little bit of him and a little bit of me always. This is the man who brought me back to church, we were baptized together three years ago this year. He was everything to me. We tired to make God number one in our lives but didn't make him a priority. In the end I know we are not good for each other. Because we know each other so well we bring out the worst in each other. It got to be just too much. Almost a year ago we split. I lost myself in him and his career and feel so empty. I have fallen into what most would call high functioning depression and the last several months I've dealt with anxiety. I have never felt like this before. Not even after my divorce from my daughters father. I don't know how to get my heart to understand what my head already knows. There is no way we can ever get back together and that is for the best. I think it's so hard as we share a child together so I have to see him at least twice a week. I miss his son so much. My daughters misses the family we once shared.
I have my three children and they are what keep me going. I just don't know what to do. I honestly don't have any friends to talk to, So I'm just stuck in my head with what ifs and the could have been.
I'm stuck with guilt of another failed relationship, and what my daughters think of me.
I know God loves me and forgives me doesn't look down on me. I just don't know how to let go. I never have. I've always kept things bottled up.
Really not sure what I'm even asking for or need. Sometimes things in my head get to be too much and I need to let it out.
Thank you to whoever took the time to read my babbling.
Healing for my niece
I was told my niece was diagnosed with Intracranial hypertension pressure. She is an amazing mom and she needs your prayers.
Healing for Relationships
Please pray for Leo to have a better relationship with his kids. And, for them to respect him. Thank you, we appreciate your prayers!
Guidance and Safety for Daniel
Please pray for God's will in my life and my son, Daniel's life (13 yrs old). He plays tackle football and I want him to be safe from any injury. I also want God to guide me to the people for whom may be helped by my testimony and charity. Thank you, Spirit 88.9!!
on my last straw
I don't know where to start... I'm a strong will person and I have a very strong personally but I have learn to put others before me, or so I try, but my husband for the last 13 years is a narcissist. He does not have a filter and says what is on his mind and is not polite on how he says it . He is very hurtful when he speaks to you. Frankly I though of walking out on him numerous times. Don't get me wrong he does not drink or have any bad habit's but the one thing is he does not care if he hurts your feelings . When I got married I told myself that I would work though every single obstacle that came across and that I would not give up on us. It has become so hard to live with him. I'm miserable and he does not care to fix what is falling apart because of his way of thinking . I have lost myself . I have a 10yrs daughter and 8yrs old autistic son and I want to save my marriage but it hard when only one person is trying. OH GOD ! please show me the way and allow me to see and make the right choice.
for my daugher
Prayer for my daughter who is having her 2nd son, she has been thru a lot with her brain tumor and recovery. Thank you for your prayers.
Various Prayer Requests
1-Pray my mother's blood sugar level is normal and for her to be healed of type 2 diabetes. Also, pray she has no side effects from medication and handles stress well. 2-Pray my father is healed of prostate cancer and parkinsons disease. Also, pray he has good mobility, has energy and sleeps straight thru in the night. 3-Pray a confidential need of mine is met.
Prayer for my daughters friend's mom, who was misdiagnosed and now has meningitis. Prayers for entire family and healing.
Weapons formed against me by my ex husband
I have been divorced over 10 years,,,it was a horrible court and life experience.... my ex family has come against me with drama and lies,,,, they embellish and are digging and grasping at straws,,,twisting stories and doing almost anything and everything to bring me down....they thrive on this and do it to each other as well. I pray no weapons against me shall prosper and that I may be forgiven of anything I have done to engage drama... I ask for God to work on them as well and find positive loving things to do with there time....I ask that they quit bullying and threatening me,,,,that God will protect and guide me and continue to bring me away from them, I ask for courage and strength to stand up for myself.
Anxiety panic attaacks
I need prayer for healing and strength. I know God has everything under control but when I get my attacks is a very scary feeling and I end up weak and tired for days. I've also lost direction in his path, praying for guidance to get back, and live to serve him.